Thursday, November 3, 2011
The craziest thing about love is that it can be all these things at once and none of them at the same time.
There are a million different types and degrees of love. I love peanut M&Ms, scarecrows, the Starbucks girl, my kids and Mr. Awesome ... just not all in the same way. My devotion to each is true and strong but I don't love them the same way. I still love the first boy who ever stole my heart, my high school best friend and the 90 year old woman I would share my coffee break with when I worked at the nursing home. I haven't seen any of these people in more than ten years but they each still hold a precious place in my heart. And my affection for each person who holds a piece of my heart does not diminish my love for the others. I think it adds to it.
I think we become the sum of everyone and everything we have loved and our attitude about those Loves is what shapes us. I have had my share of heart ache but I have also know unconditional, take my breath away, humbling love ... and I am thankful for both. I am thankful for the lessons of strength, survival and beauty I learned in my moments of heart ache. I am thankful that because of those disappointments, I cherish the Loves I have more deeply and I know that I am stronger than I thought.
I wake every day in awe of the people who love me in spite of my shortcomings, pettiness and ugliness, who see me through Love's eyes and cherish me just as I am, who lift me up, have my back and walk beside me. I am thankful with my every breath that my life is filled with people who see me worthy of love even when I don't feel worthy because it is in that Love that I am made worthy.
Its all so extraordinary ... this Love thing.
All that you can't leave behind.
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